sophomore year

SOPHOMORE YEAR SUCKED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blogger on My Phone!

Today I downloaded blogger for my phone! So if I ever forget to write a blog for this ridiculous class I can just write one from my phone anywhere I may be. It will be so convenient to have this application on me at all times! 

I love all the convenient applications on my phone. They help a lot when your  really busy; and some of the games are very relaxing. I love the facebook application also. It helps me stay connected with my friends and helps me be aware of things going on in groups I participate in. I also like that I have my Gmail account on my phone. I can check my email from anywhere and my phone notifies me if I ever get an email. Its pretty cool.

ugh

So for the past couple weeks I've been going back and forth on which instrument to play this fall, trombone or bass drum. Everyone kept saying it was up to me and I decided on bass drum. I love playing bass and I think I'm definitely a good enough musician to play it. I have the technique and I'm ready to play it. Until last night after our first full band rehearsal. My boyfriend told me i should be prepared to play either bass drum or trombone because 3 of the freshman trombones didn't show up an that his dad was going to talk to me to make sure I was making the right decision for myself; when I know I am. So now if i have to play trombone I'm going to be highly upset and be very unhappy this fall season. I guess we'll see how it goes after i talk to Fox.                                               

We're Not All Nerds

Im never going to finish this stupid thing before next friday. Especaily since I have to do this stupid blog and the animate thing. The teacher hasnt even helped us with it at all. its just dumb. I know we're supposed to be an advanced class (which we dont even get credit for) but we're not all crazy nerds who have no lives and can work on their school work 24/7. Just because the teacher grew up like that doesnt mean we have to. We're not all nerds. I dont even know how to write a research paper. Any time I ask for help from the teacher he either says just look at the website or he gets destracted and goes and helps someone else because he is so freaking A.D.D. Its rediculous! Im so done with this class. I really feel like im going to fail for the year. I HATE IT.

My Throat Hurts

So. Tuesday I had really bad heart burn. It sucked. I always get heart burn. But this time it was really really bad. It was making me cough, a lot. So i was coughing ALL day. And then on wednesday i woke up and my throat was killing me! I couldnt even talk ! But after i got some water it was alot better. It was kind of hard to sing in choir butit was okay!
This morning, however, my throat was even worse! and now im barley able to talk! And my throat hurts soooooooooo much! i hate it !! and on top of that i have a huge headache! mehhhhhhhh!

My Broken Palace

Purpose

My Broken Palace is a non-profit organization of passionate people who want to help others in their time of brokenness. Our shared desire is that no one should ever have to deal with the crushing weight of loneliness, depression, anxiety, stress, abuse, addictions, or thoughts of suicide alone.  Become part of the movement.  Whether you are the one in need or someone who desires to encourage others in theirs, My Broken Palace embraces your participation.

“no one lonely, alone” - http://www.mybrokenpalace.com/

My Broken Palace is a very helpful and amazing website. This place is for people in need or people who want to help. The prayer wall is the most amazing thing to me.

Anyone can write on this wall and they can ask for advice, give thanks, or just pray. Most people ask for help and advice from the other people on the website. To respond to prayers on the wall you just click on the comment and give your advice. To put a prayer on the wall you just go to the wall and click the link at the top that says "Write a Prayer or A Thank You". I encourge people to use this website often. I love it and it has helped me through a lot. Please visit this website. http://www.mybrokenpalace.com/

Bulimia

Some of the most common complications of bulimia are:
•Erosion of tooth enamel because of repeated exposure to acidic gastric contents.
•Dental cavities, sensitivity to hot or cold food.
•Swelling and soreness in the salivary glands (from repeated vomiting).
•Stomach Ulcers.
•Ruptures of the stomach and esophagus.
•Abnormal buildup of fluid in the intestines.
•Disruption in the normal bowel release function.
•Electrolyte imbalance.
•Dehydration
•Irregular heartbeat and in severe cases heart attack
•A greater risk for suicidal behavior
•Decrease in libido
Some of the most common symptoms of bulimia are:
•Eating uncontrollably
•Purging
•Strict dieting
•Fasting
•Vigorous exercise
•Vomiting or abusing laxatives or diuretics in an attempt to lose weight.
•Vomiting blood
•Using the bathroom frequently after meals.
•Preoccupation with body weight
•Depression or mood swings. Feeling out of control.
•Swollen glands in neck and face
•Heartburn,
•Bloating,
•Indigestion,
•Constipation
•Irregular periods
•Dental problems
•sore throat
•Weakness
•Exhaustion
•Bloodshot eyes

Bulimia Statistics
•Bulimia affects about 10% of college age women in the United States.
•About 10% of individuals diagnosed with bulimia are men.
•10% of individuals suffering from bulimia will die from either starvation, cardiac arrest, other medical complications, or suicide.



     Bulimia is a serious disease that has touched many lives. I want anyone who even considering trying it to read this. This is important to know as a young person. So many teenagers and young adults come across the problem of feeling "too fat".

     If you know anyone who is bulimic, who you think is bulimic, if you are considering bulimia, or if you struggle with it yourself, PLEASE read this. This is so important.                                                                 

                                                          

Egypt

Well, I really don't have an opinion on Egypt. I feel like they are just another country. We are the USA. I don't understand why we have to stick our noses on other countries business, when there are huge problems right here in our country. Our country has so many issues that I think our government could be spending their time on instead of going and looking for trouble in other countries.We have people who are homeless, without jobs, that have depression issues, people with mental issues, suicidal, and so many more problems. I truly don't understand why we are wasting our time in other countries when we should be saving our own citizens right here at home.
The government could be using their power to make organizations that help more people get help with all the issues that are here. I think this whole country needs to find a new outlook on things. I feel like everything is materialized and wrong. So to sum it all up. I truly don't understand why we are wasting our time in Egypt.

ME- this is personal for me

things or people that mean something to me:
A- Ashley Diserio
B- books
C- cell phone
D- dogs
E- eating disorders
F- fishes
G- george the platypus
H- happiness
I- intelligence
J- Jessica Woods
K- Kyle Fox
L- LOVE
M- My Marvelous Mom
N- "Never ends..."
O- opening up to my feelings
P- "Purpose for the Pain"
Q- Queen Bee
R- Rain
S- Savoir
T- To Write Love On Her Arms
U- US <3
V- our Valentines day
W- "wealth isnt everything"
X- xylophone (insider)
Y- you and I
Z- zoo lights

this might not seem like a lot. but i worked hard and some of this stuff is personal..

7-11-10

     Well I don't really know what to write about so I'm going to write about me and my boyfriends relationship. My boyfriends name is Kyle Fox and he goes to Hilliard Darby HS. He is also my band directors son and my best friend. When we first started dating everyone in band was really shocked, well we hid it for a while from everyone but after a while we didn't want to hide it anymore. The other people in band asked me if it was awkward like a MILLION times. And I don't think it was ever really that awkward.
     Kyle and I are in a lot of activities together outside of school. We are in Sonshine Productions, Drum line, and youth group and youth band. We enjoy everything we do together. The things we don't do together we are always there to support each other in those things. Like different band and choir things.
     Its not always that easy dating someone from a different school. I think thats the hardest thing we deal with. "This is why we need to go to the same school. your my backbone. You keep me going even when I want to fall apart." Kyle said this when he was having a bad day at school. We feel like that a lot. But we are thankful for every second we do get to be with each other. Well yea! I love him!

Has the World Lost it's Sway?

     What happened to the simple days? What happened to mid-day strolls and having iced tea on the porch? What happened to the proper young men and women? Where did this all change, and why?

     I wonder to myself how our world came to be the way it is now. All the violence and crime and just all around bad additudes toward everything. I wish I could have lived when men courted women, and he asked for permission to kiss her. Also I think it would be amazing to just take a "stroll through the park" with the man courting you and your chaperone close behind.

     I wonder why families are not the way they used to be. Everything seemed to be so easy back then. Families were real and were always together and did things as a family. Where the children called there dad "Father" and their mom "Mother" or "Mama". And the father was always protective and the mother always cared. You don't always see that today. A lot of people dont even have both parents.

     Well thats what ive been thinking about.

Music

As I sit here in this band room I think about music and how I feel about it. I'm listening to my boyfriend practice his marimba solo and I start to realize that music can be a very frustrating thing to learn. But also that it can be an amazing skill to have. Learning the true art of music is a great gift and privilege that not everyone can has.
I feel very proud and honored that my life is filled with music. I am surrounded by music everyday. Probably 85% of my day has to do with music. I'm in band, choir, show choir, musical productions, and in a youth rock band. I also have an Ipod and I listen to that at least 3 different times a day.
This is not always easy. Sometimes I really struggle to learn all the music I'm so dedicated to. But I always seem to get it. I love that!
Well... yea I love music

Bugs?

   Why would I ever want to eat bugs?? Their gross and disgusting! Only 2 yr olds that don't know what their doing eat them!The people that eat them as a delicacy are just plain crazy!! I think that is so gross!
   Don't some insects carry diseses? I think they do! Thats horrible! What if someone eats a disesed bug and then gets sick and spreads it to everyone else? Then we'll all die! and then the bugs will live on merrily!!! Eating bugs is a life threatening idea!
   So all in all, I obviously think eating bugs is a horrible suggestion! I understand that their are a lot more bugs in the world then humans. But that does not mean we should eat them so we can keep control. Thats just plain insane!

Topics

"We avoid the topics.                                           

We make the kids have secrets

and when they are exposed

and everyone else knows.

We'll say we never knew it,

that they had a problem.

If we would have known,

we surely would have solved it"-Topics By Nevertheless

This song is so moving for me. It really is true though. Adults don't know how to talk to kids about to depression, sex, pregnancy, drugs, self-harm, and just emotions all together. A lot of teenagers don't know true facts about what they are going through. There are so many depressed teens that are so lost and all they really need is someone to talk to.

I personally know people my age that deal with things that they should not have to. They get depressed and lost and they turn to the wrong things. I know so many people that escape by having sex. I think that's why their are so many teenage pregnancies. A lot of teens see "love" in sex. They want to feel loved because maybe they feel like their not getting any at home.

Self-harm is another huge problem. Every person that does this has a different reason. Some reasons are, they see the cuts as letting all their confused emotions out, or they do it because they feel like its the only thing they can control, another reason is they feel like they need to be punished for something. There are so many more reasons.

I feel like if we all just talked about whats going on and if adults were more understanding of these problems then we could solve them. Teens usually just need someone they really feel like they can talk to and they need someone to give them trustworthy advice.

Music

     I'm also in band and choir and i would definitely go crazy if i didn't have those classes in my day. I live for band right now. It amazes me how music can move people so much. It's so cool how many ways people can write music. It also amazes me how emotion goes into music. People can write a whole story in a song with no words.

     Music is the only thing that gets me through the day. I would be nothing without. I honestly live and breath music. a lot of people say that, but i mean it. I know it'll always be there no matter what and that'll never change.

     I listen to all types of music. My play list consists on The Beach Boys, Silverstein, Devil Wears Prada, Hannah Montana, Eagles, Family Force 5, Hilary Duff, Journey, and Katy Perry. As you can tell i really don't care what is it. I love meaningful lyrics and fun dancing songs.

     Without music this world would be nothing. So many people I know rely on music to keep them going. I would be so lost without it. Somtimes it feels like that's all I have.

     Someday i want to write music or be a band director so i can change peoples life through music, like mine has been. 

"All the kings horses and All the kings men, will never gather all the plastic, and put the ocean back together again"

     This video says a lot about our society today. The guy that talked expressed the unruly ways of our generation. We use so many things that could be recycled and reused and most people don't even care. There are a lot of people trying to change our ways but people just don't care enough to do anything about it. Animals are being killed, beaches being littered with plastic bottles, and our oceans are turning into soup. This is horrible, more people should be doing more to clean and protect our world.
     All around the world people need to come together and stop this horrific legacy we are leaving. We are destroying ourselves and our future generations with our irresponsible ways. We can't just assume that the generations to come will take care of it. Everyone should be pitching in, in some way, to help the environment. Someone needs to take charge and tell people how it is, tell them that this is going to kill us if it doesn't change soon.

     So to sum it up, I believe that we can do something about this ridiculous that's happening all over the world. We just need the right attitude and the strength in numbers and we can fix any major problem like this. We need to protect our wildlife and ourselves and our future.

Post Traumatic Stress from War

     The video we watched was really interesting and moving. It definitely proves a point about war and the major effect it has on our soldiers. We should have some sort of program for veterans when they come back from war. So they can get their heads out of war and back into a normal American life.
     The man in the video had a hard time dealing with the fact that he had killed people and had seen a lot of friends die in combat. When he got back he didn't seem to feel the same about anything anymore. I feel like it would make sense to have a program for when soldiers come back, where they can go and talk about what they went through so they don't have to deal with it on their own. Or take it out on their family and friends, they could lose those people that loved them before they left. When they get back they could be a whole different person.

     Someone should speak up about this horrible issue and make a difference for the ones that keep us safe. They deserve all of our respect and love. They protected us and when they get back we should help protect them from the trauma most veterans go through.

     I think this video should be shown to everyone in America so they can understand why we are free and what our soldiers and veterans go through.

To Write Love On Her Arms

TWLOHA (to write love on her arms) is a non-profit organization that helps people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. They help people get into treatment and help them actually get something out of the right treatment.
"She has known such great pain; haunted dreams as a child, the near-constant presence of evil ever since. She has felt the touch of awful naked men, battled depression and addiction, and attempted suicide. Her arms remember razor blades, fifty scars that speak of self-inflicted wounds. Six hours after I meet her, she is feeling trapped, two groups of "friends" offering opposite ideas. Everyone is asleep. The sun is rising. She drinks long from a bottle of liquor, takes a razor blade from the table and locks herself in the bathroom. She cuts herself, using the blade to write "F*** UP" large across her left forearm".
People come to them with stories like these everyday. They want help and they don't know how to get it. This girls story is what started it all. Renee was 19 at the time and when she went to treatment facility they denied her of help because they said that she was too great a risk. So this church took her in, and started TWLOHA.
Through the help she got she found hope through God, and found light in her horrible past. Now she speaks to young people about her story and how she was helped. She encourages people dealing with depression or addiction or suicide to get help from TWLOHA and from God.
TWLOHA is an inspiration to me and i will always support them with donations and wearing my To Write Love on Her Arms shirts and bracelets. I've read some of the peoples survivor stories on Facebook and Myspace and i love seeing what other people get from TWLOHA. People that have gone and asked for help from them and actully took the treatment that TWLOHA offered. They are always so grateful and it is an amzing thing to see.

Challenge Day 2010 - Be the Change

Wow. Challenge Day was truley amazing for me. I could feel love as soon as i walked into the gym. When we walked in through the tunnel of love {the teacher and other adults all dancing and cheering for us} it was amazing and fun and little akward butt it was cool. when i sat down i made sure i was sitting with my friends. I was just gunna hang with them all day and i didnt really have an open mind to anyone else. Then when Jennifer {one of the leaders} told us to go to the middle of the circle and high five 10 people i just tried to stay around the people i know. but as the day went on i found myself reaching out to people i wouldnt normally talk. I will admit the it was akward and weird at first but eventully i felt at home. I finnally felt like i belonged somewhere. We also did play a lot of games and it was alot of fun getting to know other people. Some of those people are people i see everyday and i didnt know anything about. Everything was just really eye opening for me and everyone really. Even the people that just went to get out of school for a day got a lot out of it. Any time we really understood what someone was saying or if we wanted to show them our love we would raise our hand in the air and make the sign language sign for I LOVE YOU and it was amazing to see all the love. We also did a thing called Cross the Line, everyone stood on the line and Jennifer would say "If you've ever.....please cross the line now" and it was really interesting to see who cossed the line. it was amazing to me that sooooo many people in our school are going throo all the same things, and there was so much love and compassion from everyone. People you didnt even know would hug you when you cried and you felt like they understood what you were going through.now that we all learned how other people feel i really hope that we all continue to be friends with all the people we met and we dont judge people anymore and we all just get along and live life to the fullest.  I would definetky reccomend that everyone goes at least once while they are at FHHS and has this amazing expience like i did.

What i Thought About Dollface

When I saw dollface I thought it was kind of weird It was also very interesting. im not really sure what it means or what its trying to say. I think at first the girls face was natural and she just wanted to look like the person on TV because she thought it would make her feel pretty. In the end she just ended up falling apart because she couldn’t get to what to the TV was showing.


I think this shows how real people are. A lot of people see what’s on TV or in movies and they try to look how they look. When they should really just be them self. People could become someone they don’t want to be. It is likely that in the end real people fall apart when they aren’t themselves. Just like the face in the video.

I will definitely show some of my friends this video to get their opinions on it. Lots of people could have different interpretations of it. It will be interesting to see what they think. Dollface really is fascinating and I’d like to watch it again to see if I notice new things. I really enjoyed this video!

watch it!
http://www.teachertube.com/viewVideo.php?title=Doll_Face__Full_version&video_id=16962

My First 3 Days of School

          I was excited to go back to school! i was ready to go back and get out of the house. I had baby sat my brother all summer except for when i had band. My first day was interesting. I didn't enjoy my schedule because the counselor hadn't made my changes. I wanted to drop ROTC and i needed a study hall because I'm always busy after school.
          I loved my show choir class, it was a lot of fun. The second day of show choir we learned a dance called the Hippo Hop. It was extremely entertaining. I also really liked my US History class, my teacher was really nice and we got candy! I didnt really like my Informal Geometry class. I didnt like the way she taught, it was very crazy and scatter-brained. I got my schedule moved around my second day of school so i would be happier with it.
         I really like this English class. im excited about blogging and doing lots of projects. I love band and choir, they are the classes i try the hardest in. Im really excited about this year, it should be pretty great year.